am I wrong..?

i thought that everything should be alright after my dad married. well, the HOPE is only a hope. segalanya berantakan. especially me .. because i'm the one who easily got hurt. TEARS is my best friend.

when we are i'm in the middle of challenge, we i can't think fast, stress, crying over night, and afraid of making a decision. yup, i refuse to be adult because i hate making decision especially when the decision will affect surrounding me. i don't mind to be blame by others. but i can't bear the feeling of being guilty for the entire of my life. but, doing nothing also not good for my future life. it's something that i will regret more because people have their right to choose. wait, doing nothing also is one of the choices right? ea.. ape ne merapek..

so what do i do to make myself feel contented?

shopping of course.

last week, i spend 300 ringgit to buy toiletries, i took everything with xl size. (i hate buy in small quantity, it waste money and time).. owh and one more thing, i bought 3 in 1 printer (it's in my wish list ok, please shut)

this week, i bought bag (actually i was hope it was a tote, but NO.. its a big bag.. err don't know its special name.. sorry), i took wedges (hey, its 3 inches.. what a crazy choice.. i have to walk to go work) and ... and and i really cut my long lovely curly hair to straighten short. people call it  as re bonding. i hate straighten my hair, its look ugly and FLAT.. warghhhh. no volume at all. boring.. but have to because if i refuse, the hairstyler don't know how to stail my hair (aiyoyo, dey kenapa ar susah sgt nak jumpa orang yg terer gunting kn rambut special ne.. haih)

and i feel good. feeling good is good right..not better nor great.. just good.

sleepy.nite