Showing posts with label what a feelin'. Show all posts
Showing posts with label what a feelin'. Show all posts

12 Oct 2013

Random #4

Hari ni betul2 rasa tak sedap badan. Perut rasa tegang sangat. Terasa macam anak membesar dengan pesat. Pedih2 pun ada kat kawasan pusat ni. Rasa menipis je kulit perut. Adehh..

Harini tak dapat nak basuh rambut. Aku tak suka orang queu time aku mandi. Rimas. Semua kena buat cepat2. Gosok gigi kene cepat. Sabun badan cecepat. Cuci muka cecepat. Hish... harap esok boleh kot. Kalau semua keluar bolehlah basuh rambut. Aku basuh rambut lama. Suka cuci sambil urut2. Best

Banyak plan yang hampir selesai. Semua demi kebaikan bersama. Cuma sakit sikit kepala sebab kena ketepikan famili sendiri dulu. Insya Allah berbaloi. Aku cuma tak nak apa yang di predict orang tua tu menjadi. Family bonding je cara nak elakkan mende2 camtu terjadi. Selebihnya berserah pada Allah. Kalau dah kun fayakun, redha je lah. Yang penting dah usaha kan.

Sikit masa je lagi untuk melangkah keluar. Dalam semua perkara pun sabar je lah ujiannya. Tahan dengan tak tahan je. Tapi kalau suami mintak tangguh lagi, terpaksa guna plan b. Aku capek. Tak habis2 jebakkan aku dalam situasi yang melemaskan ni.

28 Jul 2011

opinion please!

Should we stay when someone don't us to?? Ai naw ai naw.. I really know the answer.. precisely..In my opinion, I should go because if I stay longer I feel like someone forcing himself to give my salary because he reluctant to do so because I'm not the best worker because he always feel when I'm doing my job like his company is mine like the money that i help to manage like my money like sukahati nak bagi orang like aku ni bodo tak tau nak buat keje aku like i come to work to make him loss. Ei, please don't let me pray for that. Seriously, I memang bodo akaun, thats why I come here belajar how to manage account. HELLO, I'm not holding accountancy scroll. and I'm about 1 year taking experience in accounting. and have only 10% about accounting and i'm not a hard fan of accounting. I know I work here as your staff but should you respect me as your staff. But, i have to pursue in this environment because the only experience i have because the only income i have the only thing i know to works on.

21 Jul 2011

My life, My Way.. isn't, so please don't stress me out

Bila dah berada di rumah sendiri (even its a rental house), macam2 perkara yang aku plan dan teringin nak buat. Dan aku rasa aku memang nak tambah wishlist aku untuk tahun 2011 ni. 7 daripada 10 dah pun tertunai. Alhamdulillah.. korang macam mane pulak?

Every human in this world aware and care about hygiene. Aku apart from these human lah.. tapi bila aware pasal hygiene, tak semestinya life aku tak messy. Contohnya, aku sangat suka rumah aku kemas dan tak bersepah, tapi ada waktu2 yang aku akan biar rumah aku macam tongkang pecah. Sebab bila hidup berpandukan mood ni, memang cengginilah gayanya. Setiap hujung minggu aku kemas ape. But, if anybody wants to come, of courselah i kemas2 rumah... WHAT. hipokrit? so, nak biar sepah biar visitors tak selesa dengan kadaan rumah? Aite, we have to make them feel welcome lah.. tu memang kewajipan ahli rumah. Lagi lagi lagi.. saya perempuan. kekemasan itu penting. bukan hanya kemas kat muka atau baju aje okeh..

Orang selalu fikir kalau bela kucing kat rumah, mesti rumah tak hygiene kan. Sangat Stereotype. Aku pantang betul bila jumpa orang2 yang penggeli kucing. Bukan geli sebab kucing berbulu (orang camni aku faham), tapi sebab dalam kotak pemikiran kucing = kotor. WHAT. Aku mandikan kucing2 aku seminggu sekali tau. Dulu masa kucing2 buang air bersepah hari2 aku mandikan tau. Semua tempat aku cuci sampai hilang warna dan bau (err.. takkan aku nak rasa kot.. kau?). Sampai yakin tempat2 tu dah bersih. Kalau tak yakin aku ulang 2 3 kali. Hello, kucing2 aku tau ye aku garang... ahahahaha (ketawa sopan + evil). Eh, kau tu.. kalau time hari cuti bangun pagi tak mandi sampai pukul 2 ptg ade aku pandang rendah? Mandi pun sebab nak solatkan.kan kan. Relakslah, semua orang pun ada cara sendiri nak uruskan hidup.. tapi tak perlu downgrade kehidupan orang lain. no good.

Rumah aku kecik? tapi, aku bangga baru setahun kerja dah mampu sewa rumah sendiri. TV aku murah dan xde astro? Rilekslah beb, aku tak suka beban hutang pada perkara yang aku tak fully utilise. By the way, TV aku sony.. even TV lama tapi warna masih in a great condition. Langsir aku nampak dull and kotor? Sebab dia buruk then nampak kotor kan. Its bersihlah, habuk pun takde. Lagipun my fren give it to me masa mula aku dudk rumah tu. At least orang luar rumah takdelah terteleng2 nampak  aku buat yang bukan2 kat dalam rumah macam... korek idung sambil tengok tv mungkin? ahahaha... Barang dapur aku 90% lengkap except aku takde lesung batu, dan teko utk air panas. Lagi pun, haruskah expectation kau tinggi pada aku yang setahun jagung bekerja dan baru 2 bulan di rumah baru? Pergh.. kau memang meterialistik, plastik.. upps.. 

Memang nampak mudah untuk semua ni, tapi kau akan rasa sendiri bila semuanya on your own. Yes, aku ngaku aku masih hutang abah untuk something urgent yang aku kena uruskan. Tapi, I never ask him money without pay back. Sebab aku dah faham bagaimana peritnya abah kerja dulu dengan kecilnya gaji nak tanggung anak beranak.  How I know? How I feel? Sebab aku mula dari bawah.. dari gaji 300 sebulan, to 1k to 2k.. kecilkan? At least I pay for my license car masa gaji 300. I buy my cloths on my own, thinking twice for things I would buy.. and I feel worth it.. pretty much.

kau,.. tak perlu bias sangat ya?

8 Jul 2011

Fuhh.. Finally!!



Kelakar rasanya bila masih excited walaupun tahu diri dah lama ketinggalan.. ahahahaa..

Babes, I've got new layout from blogger.. Aku memang eksaited dengan mende baru nih.. Masih dalam mood explore.. jakun tak jakun tak.. hahahaha 

SALAM JUMAAT everybody.. zikr YA ALLAH (1000x).. moga dapat rahmat melimpah ruah hari ni (^_^)

ameen


14 Apr 2011

025/100 - new shirts and jean as well

shopping!! what a great life to live

what a great blog to share about

what a great story to tell about

haha.. den acah ajo la.. 2 3 hari ni simptom gila shopping dah melekat kat aku. dalam masa seminggu aje aku dah beli 3 helai baju dan 1 jean dan owh! 1 sweater with hood (comel sgt mcm org yg jual sweater tu..). ok, fyi tak pernah aku bermimpi nak beli sampai 3 4 baju dalam masa terdekat ni. bakal menyusul 3 combo set baju. cantik woo (bagi akula). memang tak sabar nak dapatkan baju2 tu..

8 Apr 2011

023/100 - once upon a time


2nd trip cari kepah kan mase ni, tp hampeh pun tak dapat.. so, pau along cendol banting


owh.. kelakuan aneh ni sengaja dibuat tanda protes menunggu orang beli spectacles tak siap2



bagi aku ni klimaks, aku memang terjerit2 mcm org gila masa tengok pertunjukan bunga api di konsert wow kat putrajaya. memang aku jakun.. sebab aku rs bunga api tu dekat sgt dgn aku. konsert wow ni best bagi aku (ayat skema aku sebab pertama kali jejak ke konsert). plg best bila husin nyanyi. husiinnnn.. husiinnnn..


ni yang latest kitorang klua same2.. pesta belon panas kot namenye.. serius aku tak selesa pakai selendang ni. obvious muke tu tau..belonnye mane? carik kat sini


I shall miss you guys, I love the moments when we do silly things, laughing like hell, screaming like crazy (i know it was only me.. huhu).. korang, I really enjoy that moment.. sgt best

T.H.A.N.K.S

22 Mar 2011

019/100

I'm LATE
I'm WET
SPOIL MOOD
to release TENSION
go SHOPPING

BUT

no CENTS

...

19 Mar 2011

Tutorial Hijab : loose style by Maria Elena

Feels great today... wearing new shirt & new pashmina . Will upload them later.. wondering how i'm gonna upload new picturah rite?

uwh well,.. found my greyie digital cam in Along's car. Its been ages since I lost it last year. Nasib baik still in a good condition. So, gonna upload new colours of my life soon. VERY SOON!

i'm wearing pashmina like this. not very succesfull because differs of material. still, love it coz it's new to me. yeah!

10 Jan 2010

S.O.R.R.Y



tak sangka pulak orang boleh salah faham dengan apa yang aku cuba cakap. hey, I like you so much and it's a frank words that come from my mouth. i like the way you talk, the way you made your days even the way you showing your love to somebody. salah aku jugak kot. tiba2 bg opinion, nak2 bersentuhan dengan sesitiviti agama.

tapi aku agak kecewa bila di beri tuduhan melulu. cakap aku jatuh kan hukum. sumpah aku tak buat. sumpah aku takde niat ke arah tu.salah ke bila aku bagi cadangan kat dia tengok cerita antara garisan?? SALAH KE?? bagi aku cerita tu bagus. buat aku berfikir yang memang bukan manusia yang kira pahala dan dosa. sama macam apa yang dia cakap. dan aku sokong. tapi dia tak faham. maaf miss.

aku tambah kecewa bila dia cakap aku ni malukan diri sendiri, mintak aku di bukakan hidayah, and all that kind of things. dia mungkin tak sedar yang dia dah pun jatuh kan hukum ke atas aku. the way she wrote, i know she just did.

yes i know i'm wrong. i'm choose a wrong person to inspire me. at least i know that i'm not welcome to her life. alright, i STOP.

9 Jan 2010

am I wrong..?


i thought that everything should be alright after my dad married. well, the HOPE is only a hope. segalanya berantakan. especially me .. because i'm the one who easily got hurt. TEARS is my best friend.

when we are i'm in the middle of challenge, we i can't think fast, stress, crying over night, and afraid of making a decision. yup, i refuse to be adult because i hate making decision especially when the decision will affect surrounding me. i don't mind to be blame by others. but i can't bear the feeling of being guilty for the entire of my life. but, doing nothing also not good for my future life. it's something that i will regret more because people have their right to choose. wait, doing nothing also is one of the choices right? ea.. ape ne merapek..

so what do i do to make myself feel contented?

shopping of course.

last week, i spend 300 ringgit to buy toiletries, i took everything with xl size. (i hate buy in small quantity, it waste money and time).. owh and one more thing, i bought 3 in 1 printer (it's in my wish list ok, please shut)

this week, i bought bag (actually i was hope it was a tote, but NO.. its a big bag.. err don't know its special name.. sorry), i took wedges (hey, its 3 inches.. what a crazy choice.. i have to walk to go work) and ... and and i really cut my long lovely curly hair to straighten short. people call it  as re bonding. i hate straighten my hair, its look ugly and FLAT.. warghhhh. no volume at all. boring.. but have to because if i refuse, the hairstyler don't know how to stail my hair (aiyoyo, dey kenapa ar susah sgt nak jumpa orang yg terer gunting kn rambut special ne.. haih)

and i feel good. feeling good is good right..not better nor great.. just good.

sleepy.nite


8 Jan 2010

bittersweet



i should start packing right now. but my heart refuse to. the bittersweet is everywhere in my heart. i know its hard for me to leave this place. my place. i start to take care of it after coming back for my training,and i start to re-opening my business. i love this house so much. its not easy to make this decision. i hate being adults. i hate deciding. and i hate to let go what i love to..